Thoughts and memories- just like kindergarten

Just like kindergarten
you see someone for the first and within seconds you become best friends.

you miss those days.

when everything was okay and fine
when the only issue you've got was that you and your best friend are not in the same class or sitting next to each other
life was so much easier back then

Nothing to worry about
No back stabbing, faking, hypocrisy or lies

that's what we desperately need those days

some peace of mind

but know what, we still have it

it's represented in our childhood memories, our long life best friends
the happy moments you share with your beloved ones on special occasions

they all are temporary, but when you remember them, they bring you happiness

not just that
we still have good friends, loyal friends
those who care to throw you a surprise party on your birthday
those who are always by your side when you're down
those who help you and stick by your side when you need them
who stand up for you when someone talks badly about you

Friends you share good and bad times with, they are priceless
you should be grateful for them

some them are with you since kindergarten
some of them are new but worth way more than a long lost friend

some of them comfort you when you lose a friend or go through hard times

and some of them goof around and do stupid and crazy things with you
just like kindergarten

sometimes we stick to memories because we long for such happy times
when actually you can create new happy times with the people around you.

you might feel lonely sometimes.
but just put in mind, someone out there cares for you.

and when you find out, it will be like kindergarten

A message to a friend (3)

kind and Naive...

that is the only thing that can describe you,,,

I remember the first day i saw you, we were standing at some line waiting to pay college fees
both of us were smashed in between people and laughing our lungs off
we became friends right after ...i still smile when i remember that day

till one year, you got closer to some people whom you took as 'new friends'
those girls were entirely different from you, from us

they start rumors and all they want to do is hook everyone up

i hated the fact that you were getting closer to them, because i didn't want people to talk badly about you.

things got jammed....we had fights..didn't talk
people tried to reconcile us
they failed

you lost me and your other best friend for the new shiny friends

till you noticed the truth
you realized the Lie

Now, you are not the same as you were with us before, not that close to us
but still not that close with them either
you took a new friend as a BFF
which is one of our friends too

lately, we're getting closer again..still not like before,,and i don't think it will ever be like before

but i just want you to know, i still wish we can all be that close friends we were before


The END

A message to a friend (2)

Friends with benefits

it means a whole lot of things if you look at it
some friends only come to you when they need you, some are there for you for a while
until you realize that you were wrong in trusting them....

I knew you since the first year of college, you are one of the people who constantly change, always rebellious, that's a good thing
but not always good, sometimes you need to see other people's opinion in the decisions you're making
sometimes people know better than you do

you can't just make a decision on something and never change it
and when you do, you change 180 degrees and insist on it
that is just not right, there's something called flexibility , Learn it.

that's not my point in here,
i have so many things to say
when you decide on something, you have to apply it on everything and everyone

not on whatever, whenever , whoever you like and spare the rest

it's called not being true to yourself and others. hypocrisy

when you have a principle in your life, it also should be applied on everything

dear friend, when i told you about the problem i had with some other friend
all i wanted is someone to listen to me, someone who actually might HELP, or reconcile us.

instead, you just told me that being that close friends with a guy is just not right

to find you getting closer to him right the next day, closer and closer every single day
you were just curious to know the problem, and used it for your own good

i don't know what are your intentions behind it, but all i know is that instead of making things right, you made them really WRONG
you made me realize how wrong i was in trusting you

and instead of reconciling us, you made my friend more and more away from me, it's like you strengthened him against me
or maybe you just told him the same thing about how it's not right for some friends to be that close and then you become closer

i know that he talks to you and only you about the problems we have, but you are just not helping
it's either you say something nice, or just stay away because you actually are provoking me with your actions and making things much worse

there's no problem if a girl and a guy become really close friends, sometimes it spares all the drama. you don't have to be emotionally or physically linked, sometimes it just is relieving to have someone who cares about you more than your actual brothers and sisters.
and when you know your limits, nothing will go wrong.

and you can't also comment about me saying or doing something, when you do what's worse
i know you might have been telling me this because you care, but you need to review your actions instead of judging mine.

apart from that, you will always be my friend, but not like before, it won't be easy for me to tell you anything anymore, but i will be here to listen, to put you on the right track when you cross the line in any other matter

other than that, i hope you realize how hurt and disappointed I am in you.

I just wish...that you actually were trying to help me, the way you stood up for me before, and you just did it wrong, or that there is something missing that i don't know about.


in that case, i hope i know it soon...

to be continued....

A message to a friend (1)

Hello friend, or shall I call you 'stranger' ; Remember me? we once were called 'best friends'

I don't know what went wrong or how we ended that way, or why did that happen but all i know is that i actually HATE it.

We all have people that come and go in our lives, you don't care about some and it actually aches when others leave.
specially if you got too attached to them, or got used to them being in your life.

I know that whom I addressed this to might never see it, some of them won't, but I just needed to let it all out.

you might still consider me a 'friend', but it won't matter 'cause things will never be the same, not unless you really prove it

I can let go all of the things you told me or the way you ignore me lately if you didn't repeat them or just didn't use a sarcastic way while talking to me, words can kill, specially for a girl, and you did that so many times.

then you come and say sorry and i'm supposed to forgive you, just so you start ignoring me all over again, and when i ask, i get endless excuses of how messed up your life is

but apparently, the troubles you're in, either i'm a part of it, or that's just an excuse for you to not talk to me, as it seems to me you're perfectly fine with everyone else, and it's only me, or some of your closest friends.

let me tell you something, friends are there for you to help, not for you to throw tantrums at when you're pissed or upset.
and you can't just ignore some of your closest friends for the sake of others, who were once your best friends too, that only means you can't maintain a balanced life or you just got back to your old friends and ignored the ones who were lately your closest friends.

you will end up losing everyone that way.

maybe some rumor made things worse lately, but NO, it even started before that.

the question is: why are you doing that? why are you treating me like crap? and why is it fine for you to wrong me but it's not okay for me to say a word without you insisting it was on you even if it wasn't and start a fight over it?

you asked me lately to not talk to you unless you start talking so you're in a good mood
for me, it seems that you4 'good mood' is always on..when you talk to everyone..apart from me.
it seems to me that all you're trying to do is give me indirect messages about how you don't want us to be friends anymore

and the sad part is, you were the one who made us friends.
you once said that i'm like your sister, that you can never lose me
and when i hinted that you are losing me , you didn't even care to fix it or even reply to that.

what am i supposed to think about that?

Dear Friend, i'm tired of trying too much to have you in my life when clearly you don't want to. I never felt that insulted or humiliated in my entire life, or even felt annoyingly persistent about something.
but i promise you one thing, i will never talk, never ask or even bother you anymore.

have a nice life, i'm done trying to be in it

to be continued....

Stay Strong

it's been a while since i actually wrote a SINGLE WORD that is not related to medicine

My life has been too hard lately, it's like i've been caught up in a whirlwind
i have no time to do anything, well; i do have a lot of time, but i mostly spend what free time i can manage to get at home..either sleeping or on Facebook
i don't have any energy to do anything that requires more mental work, it's just hard, even writing that now seems hard

Add to that the Drama that's been surrounding me lately

everything is just too hard to handle

so i decided to let some of it out...i know it helps that way

when u trust someone and treat them like a priority but they end up HURTING you..BAD!
 

When they say then you don't wanna lose you and that they CAN't afford it, but all they do leads to you losing them!
 

When you try so hard to figure out what the hell is going on but you just don't find a clue!
 

When everything you say or do turns into a huge fight for absolutely NOTHING!

When you don't stop trying to make things right even though you did nothing wrong but they just don't appreciate your effort!
 

When you try to talk to them, but they just refuse to talk, and then find them talking to someone else!
 

When you actually remark that they're losing you, and they don't even care!

when you push yourself harder, against your pride and try to find excuses, but they just humiliate you in response and then ignore you!

What are you gonna do? how are you gonna react?

will you accept the defeat and walk away? 

when you don't know whose loss it is -yours or theirs?
will you give up? or will you give it another shot? despite the humiliation

well, I know for a fact than we give it your EVERYTHING and they just ignore you, hurt you, push you away and ignore you; that you should LET THEM GO

if they really care about you, they will realize what they did

but the problem is...

when will they realize?
will they do something about it? anything??

or will their pride stand in the way? when you gave up yours so many times for their sake?

they might realize....but it might be a little bit too late...
if it's not that late, or even that late..if they still want you in their life; they will THEIR BEST to make things right
BUT
if their pride stood in the way..then know that you LOST them..they weren't true to your face the first place









It will hurt at first, but it will pass, like everything else

maybe for the best

let's just hope for the best to happen
and be sure that GOD will always make the best of everything in the end

if it's not okay, it's not the end

Stay Strong