A message to a friend (2)

Friends with benefits

it means a whole lot of things if you look at it
some friends only come to you when they need you, some are there for you for a while
until you realize that you were wrong in trusting them....

I knew you since the first year of college, you are one of the people who constantly change, always rebellious, that's a good thing
but not always good, sometimes you need to see other people's opinion in the decisions you're making
sometimes people know better than you do

you can't just make a decision on something and never change it
and when you do, you change 180 degrees and insist on it
that is just not right, there's something called flexibility , Learn it.

that's not my point in here,
i have so many things to say
when you decide on something, you have to apply it on everything and everyone

not on whatever, whenever , whoever you like and spare the rest

it's called not being true to yourself and others. hypocrisy

when you have a principle in your life, it also should be applied on everything

dear friend, when i told you about the problem i had with some other friend
all i wanted is someone to listen to me, someone who actually might HELP, or reconcile us.

instead, you just told me that being that close friends with a guy is just not right

to find you getting closer to him right the next day, closer and closer every single day
you were just curious to know the problem, and used it for your own good

i don't know what are your intentions behind it, but all i know is that instead of making things right, you made them really WRONG
you made me realize how wrong i was in trusting you

and instead of reconciling us, you made my friend more and more away from me, it's like you strengthened him against me
or maybe you just told him the same thing about how it's not right for some friends to be that close and then you become closer

i know that he talks to you and only you about the problems we have, but you are just not helping
it's either you say something nice, or just stay away because you actually are provoking me with your actions and making things much worse

there's no problem if a girl and a guy become really close friends, sometimes it spares all the drama. you don't have to be emotionally or physically linked, sometimes it just is relieving to have someone who cares about you more than your actual brothers and sisters.
and when you know your limits, nothing will go wrong.

and you can't also comment about me saying or doing something, when you do what's worse
i know you might have been telling me this because you care, but you need to review your actions instead of judging mine.

apart from that, you will always be my friend, but not like before, it won't be easy for me to tell you anything anymore, but i will be here to listen, to put you on the right track when you cross the line in any other matter

other than that, i hope you realize how hurt and disappointed I am in you.

I just wish...that you actually were trying to help me, the way you stood up for me before, and you just did it wrong, or that there is something missing that i don't know about.


in that case, i hope i know it soon...

to be continued....